Carth knocks on the door of the medbay, where Jolee is letting me sleep on a medical table, very softly. "Revan?" he whispers, letting himself in anyway. Of course I'm not asleep. I glare at him for seeing through my facade - or even worse, for not caring that I might actually be sleeping.
"I'm not Revan, Carth."
"That's the name you were given." He sits on the edge of the table.
"And it's tied to the identity I don't remember." I sit up too, leaning against him. If I embrace the name, I embrace the identity, which means I embrace lying to Carth about nearly everything. "I'm sorry," I whisper.
"I tried to hate you for it, you know. For Telos, for losing my wife, for ... lying to me-"
"-Malak gave the order to destroy Telos, Carth, I was never entirely heartless. Or stupid."
"And you didn't lie, the Council did. I know. But I looked at you and the things you told me... You were so innocent in some ways and so naive in others and I just wanted to bring you into the world safely, you know?"
"I still am." I sigh, and he puts an arm around me.
"I saw in you someone I could protect, not the one person in the galaxy that needs protection from anything but herself the least. So when we found out... It was a blow to me. I thought I was going to lose the reason we connected the most. But I realized that our relationship doesn't rely on me taking care of you. It's obviously more than that." He kisses my head. "And if you really don't remember anything, it's just a bonus that you're still entirely mine." I blush and he says softly, "before coming in here I had decided I didn't mind going where Malak and ... everyone else has been. But no one has, have they? You're really not Revan anymore."
"You're still going to be my only, Carth," I whisper, climbing into his lap and accepting his comforting hold around me. "I think I love you."
"I know I love you." He kisses my head and then tilts my face toward him to catch my mouth.